sometimes..

ALways...
in all ways when seeking to confine and set perameters as per another person's individual growth... one will encounter opposition.

One only seeks to control out of fear..
fear can come from ..

...anger...

a galaxy of downers .,. doosies and whats- its


I'm sick of cages.,. fear,.
I can't...
i won't do it like that.

I just want to be..

when a construct of fear is placed on me..
when i am forced into a sort of controlled- submission.. it always drives me further and away.. and drives me further out


what can i do but be me?
anyone who knows me...
hahahah...
knows that i cannot be pegged..

i need to do my ghost dance..
where are my sisters
and my brothers
Can't you see?
this is the End?

I find pleasure in making little distinctions in my brain. My waves get changed, my music and colours and floating membrane.

I don't have to feel any particular way, I am influenced by environment, others and my own conscious desicion.
I'm creator. I'm hou'jan inside out woman.
but I want love. I want harmony.
Don't stare too long into any deep crack,
sometimes it smells like a nasty shit, and you may fall in a out house.
.. Clints co-worker fell in a out house when he was a boy, and his dad pulled him out. Can you imagine?
Let that be a lesson. oh, for real. Can't you tell when i AM being serious.
Can't we always be harlequins?

I know I like it

I have these imaginary words I like to make up.

one of them is meningitis..
Ever hear Ween?

I think I'm obsessed..



a title like flies on my dick? come on
thats just rude.

I had this dream with these lines in it

sip the sap
and trait to fate.


i was trying to find Psalms in the Bible because I was doing an exorcism.. very frightening.. but i couldn't find it..
I flipped to the Revelations and found that

interesting, no?

Body: I think that would suitably describe me.,

my passions aren't just political.
Which I think every warm-blooded (anti reptile partison group)
American should have.,



But I appreciate a fine interweaving of tastes and textures along with heavenly and worldy pleasures..
What finer avenue to spread information, than to infiltrate where disinformation has hit the hardest and fastest.

Art.

We can start by taking down those AWFUL andy warhol paintings.. haha.
Seriously though., he is what made non-thinking consumer art

(aka pop art, post post modernism thinkable to the imaginative mind!)
we must put aside those vain babblings as just what they are.,.
babbling, triflings.. as sound brass or clanging cymble.

To be a sensualist.,. a true sensualist, is to engage the mind and to even be aware enough to register those sublime, non obvious little truths and beauties out there..

Lets get to it

so you sat on a brown hat
would you like to touch the button?

things you thought would pass.,.
or you thought you knew.

you don't know.
you don't want to do you.?
you'd like to touch the button
of browwwn
oh yeah
downtown.
allll yeah.

cause you dont' know how i feel
you like your own reeeel feeel
that brOWWNNN button..
oh its down
town
all the way

yeah.

interpretive music by jane
i play it on a flute

keep in mind., how little we know about the true nature of reality..
how lackign we are in our five senses to detect all the facets which make up the universe, time and space...

we must always remember just because we aren't aware that something exists, does not mean it does not exist.

Weather control for example.. it has existed for decades.. in reality it's been around since the ancient times (along with a lot of 'modern' scientific developments) .

Take this Ben Livingston.. who was a commander for the Navy in Korea and Vietnam..where he got a degree in cloud physics. he knows how to seed clouds.. he made muddy roads..made it rain...saving lives by preventing occupation. in 1960 there was a huge military interest in hurricane control.. where it got suddenly dropped into the black projects... top secret pentagon shizzles.

I believe hurricane katrina among others where manufactured. I think this in time will be more and more exposed.. also , after that hurricane, the gov't used that as an opportunity to test how far FEMA will go to militarize that faction of the gov't , along with militarizing the police.. there are many examples of that.

I hope as humans, especially those devoted to intellectual pursuits always investigate to get to the root of knowledge.. ive never stopped asking how or why..and i especially dont exactly buy the official story of reality that people just hand over to me. Be it church, education, media.. if there is a global conspiracy to consolodate power, it would make sense to make sure the people are not aware of it.. it would make sense to control the media, education and religion. this has been done sooo many times before..

I dont know how many more examples of Bush speaking of his plans for a NWO that you need to know that there IS a plan in place to control the world via centralized gov't

George Walker-Bush President of U.S.: 2001~current. Yale Skull and Bones Society. Speaking to Palestinian Prime Minister Mahmoud Abbas. June 24th, 2003
"God told me to strike at al Qaida and I struck them, and then he instructed me to strike at Saddam, which I did, and now I am determined to solve the problem in the Middle East. If you help me I will act, and if not, the elections will come and I will have to focus on them."

Haaretz - Israeli paper June 26th, 2003
Washington Post June 27th, 2003

George Herbert Walker-Bush President of U.S.: 1989~1993. CFR Director, Trilateralist, CIA Director, Yale Skull and Bones Society. Speaking before Congress on September 11th, 1990 [Televised]
"... what is at stake, is more than one small country. It is a big idea. A New World Order where diverse nations are drawn together in common cause to achieve the universal aspirations of mankind: peace, and security, freedom, and the rule of law ... [The war in Iraq is] a rare opportunity to move toward an historic period of cooperation. Out of these troubled times, ... our fifth objective, - a New World Order, can emerge: a new era, freer from the threat of terror, stronger in the pursuit of justice, and more secure in the quest for peace ... Now we can see a new world coming into view, a world in which there is a very real prospect of a New World Order. ... We are now in sight of a United Nations that performs as envisioned by its founders."

as you can see, this is on lie.. so they are implementing their long thought out plans .. be it by creating a fiat currency (which our dollar continues to drop in value), chipping everyone (pentagon website, department of defense) by 2020. that you will not be able to buy or sell without it.. (ref. DOD website). and that the chip itself, which is run by the bodies own electrical current can be manipulated on the nervous system level... tracked via satalleites.,etc.. they are using "terrorists" as a total front to destroy our freedoms, and its sooo freaking obvious!

well i want ANSWERS!!!!

all that is modern is ancient!

ps- this is partly why i have completely lost faith in mainstream media-

John Swinton Chief Editorial Writer of the New York Times circa 1953, when asked to toast an 'Independent Press' in a gathering at the National Press Club
"There is no such thing in America as an independent press unless it is in the country towns. You know it, and I know it. There is not one of you who dare express an honest opinion. If you express it you know beforehand that it would never appear in print. I am paid... for keeping my honest opinions out of the paper I am connected with. Others of you are paid similar salaries for doing similar things....

The business of the New York journalist is to distort the truth, to lie outright, to pervert, to vilify, to fawn at the feet of Mammon, and sell his country and race for his daily bread, or for what is about the same thing, his salary. You know this, and I know it; and what foolery to be toasting an 'independent press.' We are tools, and the vassals of rich men behind the scenes. We are jumping-jacks. They pull the strings and we dance. Our time, our talents, our lives, our possibilities, all are the property of other men. We are intellectual prostitutes."



xoxo,
Jane G.

Human Computer Clones are becoming reality
RFID merging the dimensions of cyberspace and reality.,
no more will you need to type in a search engine, or log on to the internet to search documents or information.,.
soon, because of what the Pentagon's plans are for the United states citizens that make it manditory for EVERYBODY to take the chip, the real life you are living apart from cyberspace, and the virtual world of cyberspace will merge into one traversable landscape. This is what is means to be in the grid.. literally, your life will become like something out of a Philip K Dick novel, where you are demoted to becoming something like a computer clone.,.
Your world will be trapped into a grid system where at a remote distance , because of the RFID chips inherant nature to run on your bodies own electrical current, you are opening yourself to being manipulated in mind, emotions and body.. lust, want, desire, anger, hatred, euphoria... all at the click of a button, as they watch you buy a beer at the bar... suddenly you hear a voice.. "Sir, this is your fifth beer, judging by your information on your chip, you are slightly overweight and the beer you are purchasing is high in calories. You will not be allowed to make this transaction"
The convention in Chicago that was put together for RFID companies to brainstorm and discuss their products openly admitted that people will probably be resistant.. The Department of defence is going to make it mandatory... they will ADVERTISE it as something that is 'cool' and 'trendy' ... like a body modifaction.."man you're not cool .,. look at my tattoos and my chip man.... mannnnn... i just love being a tool.."

Wake the f*^$ up.

Until I find a job,. i am afraid I will have to succumb to my mind, think bizarre thoughts and exercise the lobe.,.
I have been lax., it shows.. I need to engage in fruitful thought.,. must not curtail any levity though.
I've revamped the people I keep company with.,
they now include myself in addition to I and me.
If you'd like to join us in an afternoon discussion over a pot, let us know.,.
We're looking forward to it.

I was on the scene yesterday in Janey's house.,observing the girl as she sat quite glum, fighting back looking like a sad sad thing on her dumb bday.
I asked her why she was upset.,. and she quietly replied.,. "I'm not.,. i mean i am, but I don't want to seem ungrateful.. I just thought I'd get to see some friends on my birthday, as I have not been able to see them much for the last 6 months"
At this I said... hush child... didn't you know that as we inch toward the photon belt even more this year, you will get a chance to do your birthday all over again;... this year!

at this she livelied up herself quite a bit..

so.,. I guess she will be celebrating life and loving and having mega libations sometime soon.,..
She will not hold back.,. so...
hold on to a butt cheek.. and smile..
I want to party.,.

geez

rough draft copy.,. copywrite jane grothendick



A Call for Real Patriotism by Jane Maya Rodriguez-Grothendick



Statesmen will invent cheap lies, putting blame upon the nation that is attacked, and every man will be glad of those conscience-soothing falsities, and will diligently study them, and refuse to examine any refutations of them; and thus he will by and by convince himself that the war is just, and will thank God for the better sleep he enjoys after this process of grotesque self-deception.
- Mark Twain


I feel as though some one out there besides a faithful few people in independent media should be challenging main-stream media. The white-washing that has been carried out by the Presidential Administration regarding this war, and the purposeful deceit to sell the idea of war is an affront to the Constitution. It is time to face the facts and stop deluding ourselves into thinking that this country can be left to the government elite to run itself, and no longer requires authentic involvement from the public. “Of the people, by the people, for the people” is the very foundation of our government, and how it is to be managed. This is not a liberal issue, nor isthis is a conservative issue, this is an issue of humanity. Only this humanity is never appealed to, our higher selves are never goaded or encouraged, the only thing the media machine feeds is hatred, propaganda and a matrix of lies which the citizenry then adopt as truth. Even when confronted with the facts, which thus illustrates that their beliefs which are based on what the television has told them are false, they still fight to protect the paradigm that the Bush administration spends billions to make sure is in place. We must not allow ourselves to be desensitized by the television or advertisement campaigns of false journalism that has become the norm, and is every where we turn.
Virtue precedes the desire for truth and the reaction of these two elements are justice and freedom. It is what makes our life mean something, and is the marker to define real patriotism. These are the ideas I urge you to uphold were the very ideas defended in blood against the tyranny of England. Are we now to be laid to waste from tyranny that was birthed from our own nation and is rooted in our own government? It is a horrible thing to do, to infringe upon the basic freedoms of Americans by using terror as a fear tactic to sell the idea of war. Think of the legacy we are leaving for future generations (if there is a legacy left to be had)
It is far passed the time to face these questions. Not many are aware of Cheney’s ownership in Halliburton, the corporation that gets paid to re-build nations after it has been ravaged by war. What does this mean? If I need to tell you the financial interests of these corporations to propagate war, Godbless your naivety. We do not hear the real news on the television, because we would be appalled. For instance, what is now dubbed the 'fourth branch of the governement', the media, has admitted that the Bin Laden tapes are FAKES, as with the other tapes that are published for consumption month by month. These tapes are admitted to be edited tapes that are FAKES, which are years old.
Sick yet? The pentagon admits they stage these events. Nor are real investigators allowed to publish their findings because the proof defines the corruption. They admit to staging the black box tapes of flight 93, everything.Not only is the administration not allowing an independent investigation as to what happened on 9/11, but they believe the American citizens are stupid and to not be able to find out information on their own!
There have been numerous analysis made by Physicists, Mechanical engineers, not to mention the German Chancellery to name only a few, regarding the buildings that were bombed on 9/11. In USA Today, the FBI stated that bombs were planted on the buildings, before the planes crashed into them. EMT workers on ground zero witnessed the bizarre behavior displayed by the military police right before the blasts happened on the ground level. There were also many, many credible ex-government officials who warned into the coming months leading up to the attack, that the US Government may try to attack it’s own people to justify a “clamp down in civil rights and to justify additional wars”
This is what retired Air Force Colonel who has flown in over 100 air combat missions and was the director of the Star Wars defense program under both parties (Republican and Democrat) had to say: “"If our government had merely done nothing, and allowed normal procedures to happen (in other words, plant no bomb-like devices) on that morning of 9/11, the twin towers would still be standing, and thousands of dead Americans would still be alive. That is treason!”
Also, the US has declassified certain documents which admit that America’s Joint Chief of Staff signed off on a plan to blow up American planes! Also the declassified document pointed out that the administration planned on deliberate terrorist murder attacks on US CITIZENS. The analysis all points to that the towers were yes had some kind of explosion device that was detonated to further the destruction of the towers. The sad fact is that this evidence you won’t see on your news channels, who are all owned by the same few media moguls. How can you say that when they spend millions of dollars on PR campaigns to make their opinions look unbiased, is actually unbiased. How can their opinions, based on the system of how our government (should) operate on checks and balances be non-partisan? It is plain to see that these people take painstaking efforts to occlude the truth from people. The simple facts are that there were CIA members not allowed into New York on the day of the attacks. It is also a plain fact that there was a drill for the CIA the day preceding the attacks. Guess what the drill was for? Air attacks targeted at the WTC buildings.
If a person thinks logically about these events, as they happened, and lead up to the war that has now spread to Iran, one will see that fear is the weapon of choice for making this total invasion into other countries plausible. Terms like “Iraqi Freedom” is a classic example of inversing the meaning from what they are actually doing to white-wash the situation. This war is not about “liberation”, but on behalf of American conquest and colonialism. Of course good, honest Americans would not put up with this kind of imperialism if it was made plain-as-day. That is why they spend BILLIONS on spinning the truth into a lie, to which now, thanks to the Patriot Act, you cannot even disagree with, without being called a “terrorist”. I ask you, as a daughter of this wonderful country to please, stand up for the spirit of freedom! It is our obligation, as outlined in the constitution by men who forged their way through the oppression and tyranny of England, to defend this very ardently. Each and every one of us are endowed by the Creator the Divine Right of Kings in this country. In truth, every man woman and child ever created are equal, but the beauty of this country is that we fight to make sure that we are all treated to defend these Divine Rights.
Fear is the mantra of this current government, “give up your rights because the “terrorists” will without doubt come and get you!” This is unconscionable. I am concerned, friends why it has taken so long for us to wake up and be real patriots and defend our homeland in the spirit of truth from the real terrorists and would-be dictators. We cannot be satisfied with lies, or half-answers, or opinions motivated by greed, that so far have been the only answers to people questioning the leaders. We are the ones who die in the wars, we are the ones who send our children to get slaughtered. We don’t get contracts after-wards and make billions, we die in the war. We don’t get cheap labor for our businesses, we ARE cheap labor. Where are the corrupts children after the war has been created, are they in the midst of the bloody battle right now? I think not. We have an obligation to defend our Constitution and the States as a sovereign country from this clear immorality. But that requires us to make certain realizations and to get involved. There cannot be anymore willful ignorance, this country was not made free by such states of mind. There is no debating the fact that the government has gone rogue and unaccountable. If you can, by all means, offer a refute, but it is plain to see.
If one is getting tired by being ruled by giggling smirking crooks that don’t care whether you die or live, a great and simple way to start is by reading and investigating on your own. They may have stolen all the PR firms to make themselves look good, but you cannot put lipstick on a pig, and expect it to look divinely stunning. They may have stolen all of the media, but we are smarter than that. Whenever you decide to make these steps towards becoming the informed citizen we are called to be, you contribute to the cause of liberty and freedom for all man.

US plans to 'fight the net' revealed

Adam Brookes / BBC | January 27 2006





A newly declassified document gives a fascinating glimpse into the US military's plans for "information operations" - from psychological operations, to attacks on hostile computer networks.

Bloggers beware.

As the world turns networked, the Pentagon is calculating the military opportunities that computer networks, wireless technologies and the modern media offer.


HAhahahaha,..,

I remember when i was contacted by an occultist group to submit my opinions to a world wide forum, hosted on a secure site,. invite only thing., where they said "we've been observig you, and would now like to ask you to tell us about what you think regarding current states of affairs."
They gave me the name Levoyah. And I posted and posted.,.
The administration really is training military troops to come and take your family.,.
and Fema.., death camps..
oh but i've been saying this since i was FIve.,. no shit..
i dont know how i know..
oh i do know.,.
but i dont know if it would make sense to you.,.
it doesn't matter really,. information.
it matters. I know cause its real.,
so does cubey triangle , I like her.,. we play together!

kay

should i preface this with a statement founded in Caucasian Body Hair Management?
That was a piece written not long ago which pointed out the fact that modern day white women have taken up the practice of shaving their hair (leg, armpit, pubic) due to the fact that men secretly harbor desires for girls who are short of pubescent. 12 year olds.. younger perhaps..

The only reason I bring this to light is because myself personally have been confronted with the male species in its worse light.. and female.. I don't like humans.
No.
None, none...

carousel..!
pretty pretty carousel!


I'm getting married today.


Love Him and I

I love you too!



xoxoxoxo

Did I tell you how I went to jail?

oooh baby,
I did, I DID go to jail..
Did I tell you how i dreamt the other day i was the Guadalupe ?
I was in some ancient Mayan procession that we all decided to ressurect.
Lets do that.

I have to get this bitchy deadline in now. did i tell you doodly goo, that I like goat cheese?
i D
O!

letters are.,.
little symbols.
turn matter.
vaporis

this is all im saying right now.
im a fuck ing kitten
smile on me jesus. spinal menangitis got me down (:

I suppose all these things provide a tidy catharsis.

I have two jobs now.
Want to know what they are?
Columnist for the Wauconda News paper,
and hopefully an honest job helping people build homes for other people.
(not exactly sure what this entails quite yet)
Things are happening,
I oscillate between being and not being,
more accurately, having all my eyeballs looking directly at it
IT.
all of it.. univvversaly.
And then the other motion comes and I'm all too earthy.
Jealousy and a preoccupation with justice.
I am in love. And it is teaching me a lot about myself too.
I think I'm ugly when I'm not aware. I feel ugly. I act ugly.
I want the best for you and me.
What shall we do?
Can you disagree/agree?
I mean.. what shall we do about this world.
are we even from it?
oh and you and me.
them too.

I'm sorry for what I do wrong.,
Is my brain justifying? a loop-hole searcher.
I know why we are together..
I know.
Have some faith.

There was a light in the sky at dusk, like an airplane.
High, high in the atmosphere it twinkled. It moved slowly at first, then picked up enormous speed and zig zagged and loopdey looped. I stared in wonder thinking that this must be a ufo. But the dot in the sky came closer, and i saw filaments of light surrounding another body of light. There were wings, it was white beautiful.
I called to it.. "Come here!" pleasE?
it came down,
the androgyne..beautiful being over 7 feet tall.
Wings.,
It took a shape of an older woman with long hair and indistinguishable figure. Her eyes shone like sea foam jade tiger fires.
I introduced her to the people whose house i was at.
I don't think they knew what she it was..
She was so...
so it.
It turned back to it's air form and went back into the sky...
I always know and knew it's there.

<:

Everybody ought to lead
Who can lead?
..a statement.
Who CAN lead.
do it.

Love
suff'ring..

no eternal reward will forgive us for wasting the Dawn.

The Dead came back from Jerusalem, where they found not
what they sought. They prayed me let them in and besought
my word, and thus i began my teaching.
Harken: I begin with nothingness. Nothingness is the same as
fullness. In infinity full is no better than empty.
Nothingness is both empty and full. As well might ye say anything
else of nothingness,as for instance, white is it, or black, or again,
it is not, or it is. A thing that is infinite and eternal hath no
qualities, since it hath all qualities.


"Where were you.. when "I *ywh" layed the foundations of the earth?
tell me.. where? when the division came between light and darkness, and the oceans were born, and the womb.."


please remember.

by now no doubt everyone's lost interest in my boring ass thing here.
and it is sometimes.
im not sorry.
it's mine to do what I want with.

Oooh MYYine times
I still ride the crestors.
this permanent sun.


moon
create Selene
(bitch goddess steals nocturnal seed from sleeping beauties).



I have.



this secret.
It's called Cr Dr Cr
But I tell this page one thing.
I liove glorius doctor Thunder Beings.
Led by oil lamps.
to myour sacred grotto.
Where our Saviour was Born.
We touch and kiss the stars.
We make homage.